Pondering the before
My words may not have always been honest, but my dream-esque feelings had to have shone through and still grasped ahold; for you believed.
I knew this of myself at least; Words: a game to be played that we both played and paid, well.
Through-out it all, without doubt: I loved.
All that was you– especially when, you knew I didn’t.
All Faults and Halos t’was us I loved.
Words could never describe the love I held and deeply felt for you and for us; only shape the road we were to feel with hands, whilst blinded, as we traveled together for a while– and then parted.
I felt loved by you, even more desperately as we were wrought upon every rocky crossroads we came upon.
Even more charmingly when we were just in the same room, taking a hiatus from the game of words.
Most strongly when we came to its winding end.
And though years have passed, Love has yet to be glimpsed, since.
I know.
I know not how to love with words, because what I knew, it now seems all a charade.
I know my heart is honest.
Because I don’t know how to love with words, I exist in a floating state of waiting.
Until then, I’m sorry but I can’t find you myself.
I am mute and silent as the frozen dawn for I await one with whom I can be taught again how to walk and Talk with, upon this path of Love,
Because, I still somehow, believe.
Re: Tests
u*Blog – I really like, except its category function is fubar. category 7 was selected as Heresay.
mo:Blog – is very good as well, except I can’t get it to keep a copy of my post on my Palm T|X like u*Blog does.
HBlogger – Errors when posting, but still polsts, but shows as unsent in kept posts, also doesn’t do category, or appearently post titles, wtf?
Mo:blog test 2
this is just a test.
some how i think the time sync is off, since i am posting this at just about 2am on october 11th, lets see…
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i>~this post was digi-pen lyric’d by Michael unValentine.
Still new to wordpress…
Greetings n’ merry meet Willow,
^v^ I think I’ve gotten the hang of posting with categories and tags. I just wish I was using a screen larger than 4 inches. but hey? The Palm T|X is actually quite handy once you’ve installed the right browser and Office apps.
^v^ Though, I’m not sure what to do about becoming creative with “pages”, and fancy “css/html” and graphics while using this minimal screen.
^v^ It’s. just. too. small.
^v^ I’ll also have to keep a third eye out for a quicker way to post here. As much as these “blazer/netfront” browsers are wonderful; they truly aren’t. They’re quick and easy to use, but have problems with ‘security’, and ‘page error’ notifications that require a click for the wordpress site.
^v^ Once I have access to a larger screen for writing, and am able to feel comfortable coding pages, I’ll start uploading my previous stories into proper ‘page” sections
^v^ If I can get a hold of a dedicated palm app for wordpress, then I’ll see how I feel about taking on a new story for posting and updating regulary.
^v^ Anyways Willow, its been fun heresaying with you, but I’m going to look for a palm app dedicated to wordpress.
~take care n’ blessed be bad babe.
~~hugz, lix, n’ popsicle stix.
Song: Love’s Ghost.
- Song: Love’s Ghost.
I can / feel the / Demon / clingin’ on / to me,
As I’m / locked / in clawed embrace;
I can’t / breathe…
I can’t / see!
What’s it doin’ / to me!?
I can / hear / Lilith’s smile, / just a breath / behind,
As she / cloaked me / in her / velvet / leathered wings;
I can’t / breathe…
I can’t / see!
What’s she doin’ / to me!?
I can / smell / h’trancelike pheromones / takin’ over / me,
As I / bow my head / n’ I / do things her, only way;
I can’t / breathe…
I can’t / see!
I don’t care! \ what she’s doin’ to me!
As I / step in / out of my place / out of our time / n’ into,
A past / that / t’was never thyne / meant to be mine;
I dance / hypnotically…
I now see!
I now know / what she’s doin’ to me!
As we / swing n’ jive / in Night’s / juke-joint blood-drive,
We embrace / This / crystal-clear moment / of / carnality;
We feed / rhythmically / oh so deliciously…
Upon the killing-beds! \ we move upon \ n’ can see!
We feel! / what’s been lost of thee!
Your haunted Lust! / for Forever’s Love…
n’ our haunted Love / of Eternal Lust.
© 2009 October 8th by Devan Gelic of the Muse-ack! Industry.
Poem: Choice, No Two Ways About It.
- Choice, No Two Ways About It.
Twang; there goes my heartstrings, again’st– my very…
Will, this music; that I now can…
Be; the very, same, as be…
Four?– times ago; I’ve fallen head in…
Two?; these matching, sets of canine-tooth…
Ache; my head, it begs of me to…
Ward; off, my heart’s skating, thin ice…
Thaw; as love’s blood, pumps unto boil…
Maker!; of this bursting, coursing nova– that comet…
Meant; beggars to slave and forge un…
Together; Ms. Tress and I– her newlyweded, sired.
© 2009 October 6th by Michael unValentine.
Song: I Am Fallen.
- Song: I Am Fallen.
My~ \ Soul~; it sings! \ in~, in~finite mel~ody~…
of Things!~ \ t’was, nev’meant \ t’crave~en be!~~
(whispers:) I~ \ can hear it…
(gasps:) My god!
(anguished cry:) My Loss!
of San~ity~ \ as it… \ dan~ces upon th’batt’field,
with~ arms… \ ou’stretched! \ I~ reached out, for’thee
Slip!~ping through \ unclean~~ hands!… \ I fall~ \ far from thee
Upon, Earthbend knees~~\ I~ \ stay, craddled in my~ \ miss~ed conception,
of Our Re~ality!~ \ t’was, nev’meant \ t’crave~en be!~~
(whispers:) I~ \ can hear it…
(gasps:) My god!
(anguished cry:) My Loss!
of Hu~manity! \ as it… \ re-verts again, unto~ ani~mal-ity…
with~ \ long \ lost\ Words!… \ I~ growl’bout, for’thee
Upon! \ hand n’knee!~~ \
(shouts:) I!~
(whispers:) prey~
(gasps:) can you hear it!?
Upon those~ \ whom~ \ pray,
(laughingly:) My god!
Upon those~ \ whom~ \ pray,
(angry cry:) unto thee!~
© 2009 October 2nd by Devan Gelic of the Muse-ack! Industry.
New to wordpress…
Well, not only am I new to wordpress, but I am also now without a computer. Go fig?
My desktop conked out recently. I think I know what’s wrong (my main Hard Disk), but like the days of yore when CD’s were scratched, I’m stuck in a loop atm…
I bootup, it tells me i need my WinXP Pro Disc to verify and check for hard disk errors. The kicker? Again like CDs of yore, after moving around a bit, I fear most of my computer discs got lost in the ¿random/shuffle? And everyone I know uses mac or win vista so I can’t get a hold of a WinXP Pro Disc to do the check.
Which means I have to buy the OS ($169CDN) again, just to find out if I need to buy a new hard drive ($100+ CDN) for a total of almost $270 CDN. for two bits that help make a computer.
So not worth it!– especially if I wait longer and save up double that amount I could get an entire up to date and current model laptop.
Not top of the line of course, just the basic setup for my writings, emails, and occasional web surfing.
And since I’m locked into paying for my ISP for another year and a half, I’m sure going to figure out how to use my Palm TX (with mini-keyboard & stylus) and wifi connections to its fullest.
So lets see what I can do with this little screen…
